Struggles are Apart of Life

Time has gone on and Kevin and I have grown closer than ever... I never thought for second that two people who had a rough start could be brought back together, so much in love, and have helped each other on so many different levels... Since February as I said I have undergone surgeries, chemo, and radiation. I formally met Kevin's parents at a healing mass that Father Paco was holding. I instantly saw so much of Kevin in both of his parents..Not really having time to talk to them, being that we were at mass in all, they were sweet and caring...Just for them to come and show support for Kevin and I and what I was going through said a lot. His parents and I started talking and I would visit them at their home, I felt welcomed and loved by them instantly. With everything going on, I still felt good at where I was and where Kevin and I were. Some days were definitely better than others- physically and emotionally that is. The days of chemo made me feel like death the day of and a few days after ..which was very hard for Kevin.. Watching him watch me go through this, and being able to do nothing is an awful feeling... I could not imagine watching him go through something and not being able to fix it or help. Regardless...we were moving on, and he would tell me day in and day out how much he loved me, and how I was his one..as we approached April I was getting both good news and bad news from Dr. Mullen... which of course put strain on our relationship.. was I or could I die.. Whats going to happen..
Kevin started acting a bit different.. and I would question him.. he would tell me not to worry, things are just hard right now, between me being sick, trying to start the divorce process, and watching his girls have good days and bad days without him being there...
Well one night my gut instinct told me something wasn't right .. I was at B.I that day and found out I was pregnant..almost 2 months pregnant that is... I was shocked, happy, and scared .. For my own health reasons all the doctors agreed it would be life threatening for me to carry full term with my condition.. I didn't care ... Bringing life into this world, with the man I love my very best friend was the best feeling.. Also at the beginning of treatment back in February the team told me, for me to conceive a child now and in the future was extremely rare to near impossible... But we were able to, I thought to myself, this is a sign, another sign from God, to bring Kevin and I closer together..
So that night I told Kevin I was staying the the B.I, and he told me he was home and going to bed, that he loved me and could not wait to see me the following day... Well I followed him that night, and where did he go? To who I thought was his ex girlfriends house, I sat there I cried, and then I became numb, I didn't believe this was happening.. I couldn't believe I fell for him, his lines, his words, and his actions ... Needless to say I got out of the car went up and confronted him..Never mind being so sick but I was pregnant with our baby..
There were lots of words being said between her, him, and I... I told him I would walk away if he said she was his one... I also told him how I called one of his best friend before I walked up to her door, and all Kevin said was did he tell you I don't give a F*ck about her.. I again said I'll walk away, its your choice.. Long story short he left with me. and told me I was his one.
The next he called and picked me up, we drove around, stopped and saw his parents, went to eat... but we were both in shock... numb.. and overwhelmed..
I started thinking to myself why me? why now? why this? I just found out I was pregnant and instead of embracing the news, I kept it from him.. and it was an awful feeling.. A couple weeks have gone on ... and